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Incessantly
03:02
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Despite everything
I remain alive
Trudging through the ruin
That's become my life
Pausing, for a moment to reflect
I cannot seem to
catch my breath.
It never ends.
Every path I've ever taken has slowly eaten me alive.
Vision only serves to distort and deceive the fucking eyes.
Unaware of what holds meaning
I have lost my sense of truth.
Emptiness I cling to thee
Exhausted of my fucking use.
Clawing at myself incessantly
Gnawing at myself incessantly
"Just do it already.
Give it up and lay it down.
You've been staring at these walls for days
And you've barely made a single sound.
You've lost it all,
As you see no one's around."
"Overdose. Lay it down."
Fed the hatred for the self from birth into the grave.
Unfulfilled in every way despite all that I fucking gave.
Clawing and gnawing at myself.
Driven insane by this madness.
Sulk in defeat from this sadness.
Life is a purgatory to endure
Filled with pain you beg for more.
Incessantly I wait for more
Incessantly I'm craving more.
Incessantly, Incessantly,
Incessantly I pray for more.
Incessantly, incessantly,
Incessantly I wait for more.
I cannot coexist with peace inside this vessel
My habits have been molded; my will has settled.
Clawing, drawing blood again
Gnawing, drawing blood again I fold.
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2. |
Hollow Vessels
02:23
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Staring at their shells.
All life has gone.
This is now.
This is everyone.
Nauseating noise filled silence
Permeates the desires
of those with unfulfilled potential.
The words you speak
mean nothing.
This is silence.
The mask you wear means nothing,
though colorful.
This is emptiness.
Most will live to die twice.
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3. |
Chemania
02:07
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Give me. Need me. Feed me.
Cleanse me just like my trusted
stimulant fix.
Fixation on the mechanics
of a process we have never understood.
Give me the words.
Comply with my brain and aid
in the molding of the world I see.
I'll turn the pages of a chapter book written in shit
to hopefully find some ink.
A nervous system gone haywire,
struggling to react.
A brain killing itself with a Dopamine, Serotonin, Norepinepherine cocktail.
Head tilt back.
Head lunge forward.
Head meet concrete.
Spit out teeth.
Vision fades,
embracing nothing.
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4. |
Phantoms Kept Aggressive
03:19
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Hanged heads never smile
Don't ask how I know
Triumph is an amphetamine
Don't ask how I know
I beg for the pain
I pray for the burn.
I will kill anything in my way.
The trail of dead ends
that lift me.
My empire is solitude
And I am the God damned King.
Influenced
by the influence,
Product
of my surroundings.
You'll never know my secrets kept.
You'll never see the things I have.
My prison gave me life.
I live kept away.
Spit, open mouthed.
This is nothing new.
Pry, out,
teeth and tongue.
What do you hide?
Tell me your lies.
What do you hide?
Tell me your lies
Visual deception rampant,
walking, fucking, filth.
Truth be the secret buried
Deep in mind.
Control.
Deceive.
Manipulate.
"This world is mine,
your life is mine,
I want what I want.
This world is mine,
your life is mine,
I want what I want.
Your life is mine."
Desire to
cut the throat
that holds their prominent heads so high.
Degradation a form of rebirth.
Rid the Earth of scum.
Rid the Earth of filth.
Preaching psalms of degradation.
Burn the corpses of the weak.
Degradation
a form of rebirth.
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5. |
Wound Of The Mind
02:05
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Stop smiling at me.
Through pain I can't see,
clearly.
I'd beg to be numb if I didn't already know
Voices were made to be ignored.
This is my fate and I'll swallow it
Just like the blood clots.
Your savior is a sadist.
In attempts to turn me into a masochist,
I've held my tongue and forgotten prayer.
Concern is always a choice,
And I've always made the wrong one.
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6. |
Turn Back
02:05
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In conserving the elite,
the self must be subject to
absolute termination.
The sound of the mystic's lie and greed stricken tongue
drive fear.
Allow yourself to die.
In living the dream,
nothing is ever real.
Retreat; find solstice in self-degradation.
Deny the beast you were born.
Live in his image,
die on your knees.
If words hold substance,
you'd stand in line,
awaiting your own
crucifixion.
Live in fear.
Die afraid.
Turn back to delusion.
Turn back to delusion.
Live in fear.
Die afraid.
Turn back to delusion.
Turn back to delusion.
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7. |
Negative Influence
03:32
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Over,
A lifespan I've built an evil within my mind.
I'll tear myself apart to prove my fucking point.
It digs into my neck, and consumes my skull.
I have no more control, I'm bound to lose it all.
Struggle ensues.
In the end we all disappear,
fading into emptiness.
All ideas redundant
All belief a fucking lie.
What makes you think,
your life will be any different?
They all try,
Walking in circles, nowhere.
There is
Nothing
one can
do to
end this
cycle
Of self
torment.
Just breathe.
Just breathe.
Just fucking breathe.
Just breathe.
I refuse.
I refuse.
I won't
Listen to you.
I refuse.
I refuse.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
This is something you can't tame,
Embedded deep within.
I am all the shattered fragments,
Long live.
Despite every effort and attempt
You can't escape this self loathing
nature and discontentment.
You must suffer all your life.
Depression and suicide
Saturate your fucking mind
Years of hateful criticism
Smother all your dreams envisioned.
Quick solution: wield the knife,
correct your fucking brain.
I don't care if it's the last thing I do,
I won't let this dig my grave.
Cut it out.
Cut it out.
Cut it out.
Cut it out.
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8. |
Deathspiral
01:50
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Change often leaves an empire bleeding
No gauze for the wound
Clotting web of history clings to the fingers
Hoping to maintain
In last days.
In last days.
Just let the head fall
Just Let the neck fail
There's no honor in
dramatizing
The inevitable.
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User is as user does.
Never grounded in life.
Fucked full of narcissism.
Hard-drive littered with self image,
Searching blindly
for undefined fulfillment.
I won't be there
to lift you up after you've lowered your standards back to realism.
Used from the moment that they caught your eye,
nothing more.
You'll die alone as you've left me.
Despite how you address this
Tarnished truth.
Love is the fuel of repopulation and nothing more.
Your heart holds no feeling, save pressure.
In a bed of broken spirits,
Made to continue
The passing of passionless fluids,
This indulgence never ends.
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10. |
Isolation
05:20
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Stranger in the mirror.
Unrecognizable.
Defined creases
Bags below the eyes
How you've changed.
How you've aged.
Everyone and everything
You held dear is gone.
All motivation
To achieve is lost.
Slave to a routine
That rapes the joy
Of everything.
I often feel like a motherless newborn,
Not quite wanted, yet I'm here.
No voices heard in days.
Walls a cage,
no escape.
No escape.
Color drained From me
Darkness blinding me
Anguish in my voice
Dwelling in the void
Exiled as a punishment
For existing without a choice
Useless organ sack of flesh
Disregarded from the pack
I am a shell of my former self
Despite all of my cries for help,
They fall unheard, I am alone.
I walk this Earth, I am a ghost.
I need something.
Life is nothing if not loneliness
We are the only things that can die twice.
Rip out the poisoned veins at all costs.
Or succumb to the pain in emptiness.
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11. |
The Great Circle Jerk
02:30
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Life,
is going to shit
Because,
you're a piece of shit.
Let's smear shit on our faces
And jerk each other off,
Because trying
is asking
too much.
Stop playing the part.
Theatrical waste of time.
Don't waste your breath,
Spare my mind.
I've heard this all before
From a guy that looks just like you.
Deep throating this bullshit
Everyday and choking back the
Truth to repeat history and pretend
Everything's okay.
Thoughtlessly, they fuck off.
Mindlessly, they climax.
Cumming on each other's faces.
Cumming on each other's faces.
Dead
we are better off.
Soon enough.
Dead
We are Better off.
Soon enough.
There will be no remorse
When hell reigns.
Outcome of our ignorance.
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12. |
Fated Donor Paradox
01:12
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In falling apart I've become bitter.
Just kill me already.
Someone wants my heart more than I do.
Someone needs my eyes more than I do.
My lungs are misused.
Each nerve a tomb.
I can't feel anyway.
Numbed for so long.
The further I climb,
The less I have to accomplish.
Time decreases,
As I question the point of it all.
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13. |
Personifying The Machine
02:16
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Feeling pathetic
Knowing my feelings are irrational.
As I can't help but succumb to
the stupidity of all of this.
So tired of earning a living
breaking my spirit night by night,
picking up the slack
of lazy depressive wastes
of consciousness,
my mind cannot take it.
I am broken, I submit.
My mind cannot take it,
I am tortured, I submit.
You are what you make yourself.
I've made myself hopeless.
You are what you make yourself.
I've made myself useless.
You are what you make yourself.
I am self abusive.
You are what you make yourself.
I've made myself pathetic.
It's not a fucking wonder
Why I feel alone.
Trying to apply a meaning to this life,
Just to be as confused as the day I was born.
None of you make this any easier.
Acting as gears inside a fucking machine.
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14. |
High On Commeradery
02:00
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In groups you'd kill
No need for reason
In groups you'd rape
No need for reason
These hands are tools
And you're dying
to use them
Masking fear in
triumphant stride
Can't erase the
Stain of cowardice on your hide.
I see through you,
worth less than the cum you were born from.
Just like all pests,
Giving reason to exterminate.
An orgy of stupidity
With all arms flailing
Pathetic maggots.
Lead by Insecurities untold.
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15. |
The Gap
03:40
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Soulless populations mingle
Desperate attempts at belonging
Plagued in mind with spirits broken
Wanting to be acknowledged
Caught up within
The act of a great division
Ever growing gap
Refusal to understand.
Polarized, you all become one
Losing all your unique beauty
Nothing matters You have your mission,
Dividing in the name of hatred.
Feuding over ideas with our
words As bullets, aiming for the
head to never cease until our
Cause obtains a body count.
Let them wage a war
Let the blood spill
Let the fires rise
Let the blood spill.
Doesn't matter the cost,
As long as I'm right.
The only focus I have
Is serving my life.
There is no reflection
Or responsibility
Taken for your actions
You just thrive on power
You want to control,
You want to lead.
You love your control,
Birthing Deities.
Taking a bow at the feet of martyrs.
Making a game of the trauma suffered.
Head
First, we fall.
Abusing the pawns.
Head
First, we fall.
Abusing the pawns
Suffer my abuse.
A verbal duel
A sense of purpose
Emptiness subsides,
Choosing sides
Give them another reason
To continue blindly.
Become the fucking problem.
By simply casting blame you're
Feeding, the Gap.
Feeding, the Gap.
Feeding, the Gap.
Feeding, the Gap.
Feeding, the Gap.
Feeding, the Gap.
Feeding, the Gap.
Feeding, the God damned Gap.
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16. |
I Will Kill Me
03:13
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One way or another
This life must end
A head isn't made for two
There can only be one
Living like this for so long
I know no other life
Crushing my own hands
With every foot I climb.
To reach as high as possible
My own hands around my neck
Torture and self torment
Until death.
Do it, do it,
Tighten the noose
Do it, do it,
Saturate the veins
Do it, do it,
No one would miss you.
Do it, do it,
You've ruined everything.
I'll kill this voice.
Silence every noise.
The agony
of believing
every lie
I have told myself.
Return to a life of hope
Dream as though I matter
This life I'll lead on my terms.
End the pain,
Cease the blame.
Reclaim,
Your life.
I will kill me.
It's your time,
To go.
I will kill me.
It's your time,
To go.
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17. |
Scarred
05:17
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Tear down
The walls
That confine your heart
Believe
You were Meant
for more than suffering
There has got to be more
out there
Somewhere
There must be
more Than this
Somewhere
Just stop
Limiting
Yourself, be freed
I've seen hell within their eyes
I know the evil that You fear.
Nobody is innocent
And not a thing is sacred.
We've made a
Mess of this
Fucking life
But if we
Refuse to
Try and change
We will face
The end of
Everything
That we know
One by one
We will go
To a shamed
Burial plot
Big enough
For all of
us.
This life is series of cycles and patterns.
We're all cells of the organism.
Only as strong as our diseases
And disagreements.
We could just as easily fall
We could just give up.
When all light is smothered,
Never surrender.
Scarred, broken, defeated
We must carry on.
Crushed, bleeding, depleted
We will go on.
Though the light fades
Within vision changes
Time never stops.
We're all the same
Though scarred,
We must carry on.
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Ovaryrot
Ovaryrot is an experimental deathgrind band comprised of Ulf Nylin and Brady Cornett. We've been going strong since 2007, always changing, always creating hellish walls of noise in response to life.
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